Strike 3

Congratulations Universe; you win.









I studied my mother, I digested her pain; and vowed no other woman in my life would have to walk the same.

Little Ondoy

When my dad looked at me and told me that my home in the Philippines was hit by this stupid fucking Typhoon, I was basically shocked.
It was a different kind of shock.
It was processed, but I couldn't think at all.

God.


I eventually called my mother to check the prognosis.

This was the weekend where my uncle had to visit with the newborn baby.
God bless him.



Well you know the results of the typhoon. If not.
20 feet of rain is all I am going to say.

They had to move to the 3rd floor of the neighbors house.
Thank God they are fine.
And condolences to those who have suffered.


We will do our best to support.

[A.R]

Friggin' Andre lol..




It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone - but it takes a lifetime to forget someone...thinking I picked the wrong things to do in life....but hey nothing you can do about it now...

Enough?

Well I guess nothing's good enough.

We will just keep trying until it is.



I've been able to keep my sanity.






Anddd, it's your persona btw.

So Close.... But still so far..

Today, WOULD HAVE BEEN the day.
Lol, last night I had a really deep conversation with a real good friend, and it was a bit of a eye opener, so to speak.

So Today, this fine Wednesday, I felt obligated to do what I needed.
But I was hit with some sense by a friend.

But I felt so determined. But as it approached, as time slowly drained. I felt maybe it's best this stays in my mind.
Why fuck up anything.
If everything is great.
I guess, I'm a little bit scared still to take a chance or something?
Damn, that sounds bad, I just want some realization and be assured.
I'm tired of being wrong basically.

Lol, I can't help but laugh though.




"She's got a smile that can make an old senile annoying old man bite his tongue. I'm not done. She's got a smile comparable to sunrise and it doesn't start there, man I swear. She's got porcelain skin, of course she's a 10, and now she's even got her own song."

Minsan Pinsan

lol, umm i don't get to see this nigga alot. and i'm gonna improv a bit with this and just let his growing mind know wassup.
Even when we lived close by I barely got to see him, but I'm confident in saying I taught this nigga alot lol..

Kevin this for you playboy. You gettin' into poetry n shit right? well, that's good lol. Hope you stickin thru and you live out your ambitions, you got alot to accomplish, and the biddies is just a plus so no stressin'.



He looked at me in the eye and asked for some advice.
Being nice, I proceeded to give him my thoughts on life.
Then he said, it's not that intricate you see, it's about a girl this time.
I need to know somethin', is love that undefined?
Honestly, I was confused with my answer.
How can I talk, if I don't want to banter.
I couldn't explain this so easy.
And with what I was thinkin' how could he possibly believe me.
I know how the pain felt.
But I knew he had to experience it for himself.
He told me about one, then told me about another.
Then I thought about mine, and wondered why I would bother.
Sometimes, it hurts, and other times it's sweet.
There are times where your heart breaks, or times when it skips a beat.
We're both the same, there's no quick way to find it, no way to cheat.
But if you're looking for affairs, then love wasn't what you seeked.
How does love and basketball sound, yea that'd be ideal.
But with the girls we're surrounded it might seem unreal.
Truth of the matter, we're young, we shouldn't get attached.
I understand it's hard when you learn about love and all of that.
But just learn to keep your heart in tact.
And if you do reach the bottom, bounce right back.
Because we're young.
We're allowed to have fun.
But don't forget the tune that love plays for us.
Don't search for anything to fancy.
Keep it real simple, because we have too much in store if you ask me.
I don't mean to sound like a hypocrite.
But yes I know love because I've been in it.
They have broken my heart, even if it wasn't delibirate.
and there was a point where I was sick of it.
But don't take my experiences as a testament.
It's just where I've been and the feeling of my sentiment.
But you have so much in you, and you'll get what you deserve.
Just never lose your sight and your dreams, and if they're frontin' kick em to the curb.
Sometimes cuz, you just gotta live.


Lol. Right on the spot, but a small contort message.

Traveller's Guide to the Heart

On that poetry tip for a bit again. lol.
Tried to start this out as a rap, but better as a poem. lol.



How long does it take to get to one's heart?
The answer is simple, how long are you willing to walk?
I could repeat these blocks for as long as needed.
Let me guide your heart into something you can believe in.
You strive for happiness, yet you choose to stay blind.
Steady stay looking, but you have yet to find.
And I'm not saying I'm the one that can tender.
But I am the sure shot as a number 1 contender.
So where's the destination, what is the end?
I was never the type to just settle for less.
I'm left trying to find a balance.
I put a star to her heart on her heart shaped atlas.
Directions to the place that I desire was lost on the map.
But never worry, I know I can find it in my almanac.
It might be, but I guess I choose to digress.
The days that pass by can only feel timeless.
A straight line path is the best option to go around.
I'm caught going in circles and I can't be found.
I'm in way too deep and I can't get out.
These roller coaster feelings just keep going down.
Why am I writing a guide if I don't even know where to direct you?
Maybe I was hoping for you to see that I was something quite special.
This traveller's guide is more of an inside memoire in which you can reminisce.
Those moments we would enjoy when we were together whenever you think of this.
And I don't mean to sound like a hypocrite.
But you're an addiction and you're the death of me, but I can't get rid of it.
So basically the only advice I can give is to take the hand of the one person who's heart you're trying to claim.
And it's not hard, but I guarantee the journey will never be the same.
Try to take a chance.
And don't indulge into regret.
I'm an avid traveller to the heart, though I haven't reached it yet.
For the many previous parts have closed off its path.
So I continue to proceed to my paradise lost.
I can only walk down these blocks again and again.
And when I reach the ultimate end I'll start settling in.

Holler.

College

Friday, Sept. 11th.
Wow that day was fun. Spent most of the day at school getting shit done. Then went to little sister's party for her birthday.
Saw Marcus. Damn I miss you nigga. But you're doing your thing. i love you bro.
Wish I had a bigger set of balls to ask gorgeous to dance. LOL.
All in all that party was great, good vibes, good music, 2nd family time fa'rillz.
Then met up that night with JB, Mel, and Chino for some hookah sesssion. Tightttt.
Then went to Long Island for some ghost hunting. ha. good fun eh.
Ended at 5:30 AM when I KO'd at home.

Saturday, Sept. 12th
Slept in till like 3.
Then bounced to party at Croooklynn for homeboy Marco's bday.
That was fun....
Realized a whole lotta, but yes I did have a GREAT time =D
Full of fix with inebriation can be the best and worst feeling. lol
Ended that night about 5:30 AM as well.

Sunday, Sept. 13th



Woke up at about 3 again.
Spend this lovely day with my main women.
Lol. oh and kyle and tita. ha.
Had fun chillin' and eating dinner.
Night had to end I guess, but it didn't end on the best note.

I gots to re-evaluate this whole term of friendship, and it's meaning. And how family isn't the same due to certain aspects.
But I ain't tryna trip.


And now I must sleep for class is tomorrow. shit.


Drink my beer and smoke my weed.
But my good friends is all I need.
Pass out at 5.
Wake up at 10.
Then wake up and do it again.
Man, I love college.

Ambitious

Stuck at school at 4:03 P.M.


I think I'm about to just dip.
Fuckin' rain sucks. Day is so disappointing. Wasted two hours of my life at this stupid psychological experiment. Class was early as fuck.
Damn.

All I been stuck doing, is writing lyrics. Every moment I'm writing lyrics. If it's not lyrics it's a poem.
I need beats. Both produced and acoustics.

I can't go to the studio today because it's little sister's birthday. Katrina Cortes. Watched her grow up and took her as my own little sister as well.
She's 17 now, and she's talented, I wish the best for her.
I finally get to see Marcus tonight.. Fuck. lol.


And on that co-chair note. Damn it's pretty stressful and the workload is definitley living up to it's hype. I just hope the best and I am giving my all.
And a job offer? I hope this works out for me.

Shit.
I'm about to get onto that DJ tip as well.

I'm about to stack on classes thru summer and winter.
Get done quick, then go to another school for digital music.
And then Culinary school with pops.

Holy shit. Talk about ambitious.

But I meant it when I said I'd get it done.

At least I hope lol.
No time for drama, though it loves to find it's way into my arms.



Haha.

Top 5 D.O.A (Slug)

So my first on the top 5 is Slug from Atmosphere.

Why do I love his music so much.

I tell youuu.

His raw flow and unique game he brings to Hip Hop is so fucking amazing.

time and time again he hasn't failed to inspire me in some way with what he wrote.

Using his "depression" as a tool.
Metaphors and symbolism to tell the world how the happiness can go super fucking wrong, but you just have to deal with it.

And when he collabs with Murs. It's all about women. Hahah

He has made his impact on my life, not only with his music, but with the people who listen to them as well.


My bro Napon told me a month back, that his girlfriend actually listens to Atmosphere.
And I told him then and there "Girls who listen to Slug are definite keepers."

Hahaha, I know a handful of girls who listen to Slug, and that's so fucking dope.
On another level.
They actually listen to his shit and bump to it and enjoy that shit.
I feel bad to those who haven't heard him yet.
Bump SLUGGO's SHIT!

I recommend his album When Life Gives You Lemons, You Paint that Shit Gold

Let me find a shorty who rocks with Blu too haha.


Holllerrrr..


Next...

Method Man

Top 5

OOOOhhhh well..
This labor day weekend wasn't as eventful as it used to be.
Well for me at least.

Got back this morning at 7AM ughhhh, and woke up at 3. lol.

Happy birthday to Jessie Lee!!! <3




Well I just felt like posting my Top 5 Dead or Alive.
Next post I'll explain why.


This is hard just thinking about it damn. This is subject to change all the time >.<

1.Blu
2. Slug
3. Kanye
4. Method Man
5. Pac Div < I know it's 3 of them, but I can't help it.

This list is unique to say the least.

Haha peaceasy for now.

Forever

Gosh, I'm bored lol. Woke up at 130, because we went at it in Poker until 5AM.
Gash..
Started at 9, and pot kept raising due to many people just buying in.

And who is the ultimate victor?
Yours truly. Holller.
Don't judge me lol.

Last name ever, First name greatest. Like a sprained ankle, boy I ain't nothin' to play wit'.





But yea, lately alot of stuff goin' on. Alot on my mind. It's pretty clustered in my head. Ugh.

I'm always so bored.


"I used to want this shit forever, ya'll can have it back."
-Ye

Forgive Me.

I'm a horrible person.


And honestly I'm tired of living like this.















And on another note.
Let's just try.


I want to take you everywhere you want.
Because, simply; You deserve it.
Let me know yea?

Sweetest Language

School ain't bad.
It's been gettin' better =D


2 straight hits in a row. Damn I'm amp'd for tomorrows session!


Need to get my grind on!



"But my girl need more attention, then my record label desperate for hits."
- Blu