Ligaya

Title is name of song that I can't stop listening to.
Tagalog tune by Eraserheads.

No relation to this poem I wrote, just didn't know what to title it.

Ligaya = Happy.





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And here we go.
What this is supposed to feel like, I don't know.
They often say you reap what you sow.
And as of now, I have just reached my all time low.
My fears have been rekindled.
Stuck in the situation as I dwindle.
Everytime I fall, it hurts harder than the last time.
You think I'd learn by now because I always come off fine.
But if you only know how I endure.
I get taken advantage of because my intentions are always pure.
From heartache to heartbreak to straight up deception.
Happy whenever we get into conversation and textin'.
But I was always close friends with your best friend Rejection.
I'm tired of the pain and the suffering is unbearable.
Aggravatged of being taken advantage of.
I'm looking for answers, that's why I stare up above.
But everytime I'm with you, it seems I get better.
But you play that undertone smack, and show no effort.
I admit it breaks me, but my confidence allows me to persever.
I still fall hard whenever you're near.
But like I've said before, I'm afraid.
What am I afraid more of?
Scared of falling for you even deeper
Or you alienating me for falling as much as I did.
When we walk side by side, I wish I could hold your hand.
But who's decision is it to enable that chance.
Truth be told, I don't know what I should do.
I guess it's the same old story.
But I know you're my chance for the perfect revision.