Inspiration

First blog ever. Didn't think I'd make one at all, but since I'm tryin' this poetry stuff. What better place to write it atttt roightt??
Haha, here it goes I guess.


Inspiration is what I lack, yet at the same time it's what I have.
No commitment, but only to my family is where it's at.
It's hard to try and speak, or to say of what I know.
I have my sense of direction, but still I don't know where to go.
I have a straight path, but many alternatives to take.
I need my inspiration, take my passion for God's sake.
No I need my passion, take my ambition's namesake.
No, I need my ambition, for my future is at stake.
What the hell am I to do, who the hell do I have to see?
I guess for now my inspiration is you, and you are a part of me.
I don't like to base it on you as my matter of principle.
Because I know without you, I can still be invincible.
It's incredible, you have been a part of my life.
When you would question my motives, I would think twice.
I gotta be a man, it's time to take the damn lead.
But if you're convinced with my confidence, does that mean you'll leave.
You have been drifting, I have no control.
Even if I step up, I feel I can't do no more.
You slippin', everybody can tell how you changed.
You're thinking you doing great, but you've gone insane.
You think what you do is making sense to our brain.
But that stature you once had, will never be the same.
You were my inspiration, I gotta live life through my flashbacks.
You don't give me your all anymore, all you do is halfass.
Thanks for the sweet love that was shared in the past.
You're not my inspiration anymore, though you were my first, you can't be my last.

I'm tryin' dammit. haha