Hai.

Haha, great stuff. This guy overreacts a bit though, but I dig it.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0sXOxIq65zg&feature=related

So, today didn't sleep till 5, because of someonneeeeeeee.. heh.
but then woke up at 630 cuz i had to head to work. won't lie, it was the easiest 70 bucks made.
bought a really nice UNDFTD shirt, because that's my favoritest brand. for those who ever want to know what to get me haha.

But yea, I'm planning on making a collabo with my dude Jericho. Hopefully it will be good. only time will tell though. till then folks.


Happy New Years Eve.
It's time to live again.

"Out with the old, and In with the New."

Slow Down.

Damn, you're right, I'm moving too fast.
But I can't help but move with you as you pass.
Some say I wear my heart on my sleeve.
But I do that so everyone can see.
It's the truth about me.
I'm a big and tough dude with his touch of sensitivity.
My theory of relativity starts with you and me.
And quite frankly, it ends with you and me.
I do move unbelievably quickly
But it's because with you I don't feel iffy.
I get that butterfly feeling whenever you're with me.
From a standpoint, I know what I felt was mutual.
You looked so innocent, sweet, and cute; fuck it, you were amazingly beautiful.
I'm very bashful as well, so that contradicts my agility too.
So that means I love to go fast, but too shy to go through.
I'm moving so swift
Not thinking about the or's and if's.
Like I'm pushing 120, when we know it's supposed to be 50.
But I can't help, but keep moving this fast, knowing you're with me.
I don't make moves, I make statements.
If I keep moving this fast, will my passion become tainted?
Will we have to drop all our special arrangements?
Will I end up the same as always and keep chasing these pavements?
I need to slow down.
I just want to know how.
But I can't help but think of you and want you right now.
There I go again, sounding so redundant.
But I assure you, my love is so abundant.
Well it figures, I'm going crazy for you and your figure.
But I figured.
It only takes time for a love like this to grow bigger.
So in conclusion I'll take it slow.
Just promise me you won't go though.

Eshy

Heh.


I'm not usually the shy guy type
But when I'm right next to you, I look like the shy guy right?
I have a load of confidence anywhere I come through.
But that shit starts to fade, when I'm right next to you.
I could tell with you, gameplans don't work.
But thinkin' about how to get closer makes me want to put in the work.
But for what it's worth, I don't want to see you hurt.
My whole genuine character for you is true though, word.
Every time I tried to make a move, I started to shake.
C'mon I thought you have game, talk about somethin' for God's sake.
Makin' moves was my forte, but I stumble when I can't find the words to say.
I would talk about my plans for the future and what I want to do, but we'll save that for another day.
You're here right now, and I'm hella confused.
Just speaking with you leaves me hella enthused.
You penetrate my soul, and I can't even describe.
You break down all my walls with your smile, I can't even hide.
I guess I'm a bit nervous and a bit scared from the past.
Maybe you different, maybe you feel the same, I'm too shy to ask.
No doubt no doubt, you definitley a mystery.
Together you and me, I believe we'll make history.
I want to let you know how and what it is to me.
But there will be joy and there will be misery.
Pardon my prescient and foolish prediction.
But I'm a man dammit, I can make my decisions.
But I'm also that damn shy and I can't control.
You make me feel unique, you brightne my soul.
And I'm not tryin' to get sappy, not tryin' to get soft.
But when you're cuddling next to me, my whole confidence is lost.
I jus want to lay with you there in that sweet serene bliss.
Sometimes I think to myself, why can't it always be perfect, just like this.
Let me get back my strength back, you've messed my streak.
But I feel best when I'm even just speaking to you, so I'll stay weak.
And let me assure you, I'm not speaking of another, not another her.
But if it's necessary, I'll let the necessities occur.
Because right now our surpressed feelings seem like a blur.
But my confusion I once had is clear, now I'm sure.
I'm tired of being shy, I need my confidence back.
You make me feel like it's easy for you, is it as easy as that?
It's cute how we say fuck love, and that's how it should be.
But it's only 'cuz you were strayed, and haven't met me.
I go loco with you're sweetness and cuteness, and I love your steez.
I let you rock, I let you roll, I even take a step back and let you breathe.
I still find it hard to approach you, I'm wondering how.
But you move like an angel girl, I can only think to myself WOW.
And it's on my part to be somin' you need, so I take my vow.
This shy guy shit I live with will stop, right now.



Zayyyumnnnnnnnnnn.. haha

Sore as Fauxk.

Sore as fck. that's all.
Worked from 10 to 10 with an aching body. Punishment if you will.
Now I'm here at the school library with Flo and Johnrick. Tryin' to study. Hopefully my final is tomorrow. fuck.

I'm so sore Damn!


..... I put onnn for my city..

Yea it's me, I'm the Jackson heights dummyy..
No matter what you do, you can't take jackson heights from me.
I been there and done that, i have no limitations.
Who the fuck are you questioning me, i need not give you my explanation.
I've gotten love, I've gotten jumped, I've grow up in this area.
The number 1 pinoy causing mass hysteria.
Delirious? Nope, Just insane off of how I live it.
The shit you could possibly think of niggaaa, I did it.
No doubt about this, I ran shit like tribe in 88.
Little punks it ain't your turn, sit down and wait.
What these new lackluster fuckers forgot is what it's all about.
Fear is a motha fcka, but respect is the route.
I've done my time, and got my respect.
If I've been through it all, what am I to do next?
I'm gonna watch over, what the hell do you expect?
Come correct, or don't come at all.
I guarantee you, I'm the first one up, and the last one never to fall.
It's all simple and true, we've been in control.
My family was even the last generation, so you know i'm standin' tall.
Don't put your young pre-pubescent minds to good waste.
There ain't no gangsta lifestyle, get an education just in case.
You keep frontin' you gonna bring our name disgrace.
So sit the fuck down, watch how I do, and I won't have to put your ass into place.



R.M.T General - Don't fk. with me or my family, or you get bent.
(.. ahehhhhhhhhh)

Cold.

Fucking freezing today. woke up early for some tackle football at Riverside park!
Went to the park with Johnrick all hyped up and shittt.. hahah..
Was about 14 of us, I didn't think I'd be so fucking cold.
I couldn't feel my hands anymore, and it was so damn hard to breathe.

But after I warmed up and shit, it was on and crackin. I became fucking unstoppable. AHHHHHHHHHH..
Of course my team won, led it to fuckin' victory!

But after that feelin' all sore n shit, we started walking. Then walking up the block we hear two gunshots.
Fuckkin' loud, i Just ducked, scared as fuck... then we just jettttt.. We were fucking goin' crazy, and then lke 5 cop cars start headin to the place where we ran from. hahaha.. damn. I got shot at and survived, I think I'm gonnna become a rapper now. haha
Then went to Soho and met up with James, Napon, and Kyle... Now I'm home, and bored/tired/pissedoffatwork.



Yea it figures.
I know I'm not that nigga.
I love to love you, get your ego bigger.
Creepin' behind your back, i believe I was a sinner
But they say, that the Lord is a forgiver.
The shit you do tends to make my soul shiver.
We both fucked up in the head, so who's sicker?
Let's take it back to day 1 where we was both beginners.
Take it a step at a time, lemme take you to dinner.
I never slack or half ass, you know I deliver.
You hoped for my fiasco, but I ain't no quitter.
I know how sweet your love tastes, but you still so bitter.
Let me stop the sounds of depression.
I'm gonna move to my honest expression.
Lately I've been feelin' like there's much more I'm capable of.
When shorty come through, we still gonna make love?
I remember the fights, remember the talks.
Remember our meals, remember those walks?
I know how it is, and I know where we went.
You were all I wanted, till I found out you got bent.
Now we hiding and creeping, lyin' and stealing.
But if I don't want you like I did, what is the vibe I'm feeling?
Why do I write these ballads, if they turn obsolete.
How can we stay true, if we always creep.
I see passion, I see truth, I see honesty.
Honestly, you took my heart away with straight robbery.
That's how it's got to be as far as I can see.
Shorty's one in a trillion, you just like my lottery.
You deranged and insane, make me think I'm the one fucked up.
But I was always that nigga who had judgement, you're spoiled ass was always stuck up.
But I got nothin' but love, no resentment towards your stee.
Because if you ain't gonna come here, then you was never meant for me.



damn, I don't know how i manage to always make these damn poems about girls again. haha
Next time it's gona be different, fuckin' Promise!

Boared

Damn...

Time for an update I guess.
It's been a whileeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Finals week now in Baruch, but baby I'm breezin' by this shit.
Stayed overnight at the library with some goons to study for math, and that was some fun shit.
I put it in that finals ass and passed math, fuck yeayuh.
Today was whatever, hit up this great Viet joint near my school, parking was a bitch.

I'm so fucking bored. hah.

Oh, spent some time at Elise's house last nighttt.. that was fun as hell, chillin' in the apt. in the cittyy..
Pretty dope shit playing electric guitar while she played the violin and recording itt, tightt.
Then we found out my lovely friend is also a beatmaker, ahhahahahahahaahhaha..
Convinced me to kind of get back into making music.
hate when people egg me on, but i'll do it for a bit i guess =D

A little something i guess.

Here I am comin' back once more.
Rhymes and beats and bitches galore.
No offense sent, to the ladies who get bent.
But no respect shown to those who get paid for rent.
Intelligence is my number one friend.
But these linguistics shown is my novel in the end.
As I attempt to create a new found glory.
All i ask for is some acknoledgement, and those to adore me.
I come off quite arrogant, only because I have credential.
The necessity for my juxtaposition is quite quintessential.
Haha, i'll keep those intricate lines for my english essay.
But using those devices help me get it out in the best way.
But in truth I'm just tryin' to find
What the fuck I'm tryin' to say with these lines.
It's not about fame, not about fortune, just opportunity.
And on the side, for this one nigga out there who causin' much scrutiny.
Thinkin' he can't catch wreck becuase distance is his safety, foolishly.
But when I knock on your door, I'd love to see what you would try and do to me.
Back to the topic, I ain't tryin' to be violent.
Because my main goals and ambitions have been kept quite silent.
This poetry assesses me and brings me back and makes me vibrant.
So it's time for the rennaisance of the lyrical tyrant.

ehh, damn, teehee.



Well, first semester of college is over, and I kind of misss it because of the people I have met. Shit is gonna be bonkers next sem. =D
Alot of work this vac. but I'm tryna get crunk and shit. Who knows.
Alot in store, hopefully it's all promising.

So peace, love, and all of the above!

Ode to the NG's

Girl, be straight, stay calm.
In this coldest winter, I want to keep you warm.
You know I'd meet death before I let you meet harm.
C'mon baby girl, rest right here under my arm.
No need to be alarmed, no need to be scared.
I'll do you my way, let me show you how I care.
Speaking all this, doin' all that.
My lovin' is definitley where it's at.
I done my part, I'm on my grind.
Live life with no regrets, ain't no need to rewind.
When we together we rock like peace signs.
But when people violate, you know it's game time.
I do nothin' but make you feel great.
Don't worry about mistakes.
Cuz when make love, there's no way we can hate.
And I don't do what's unecessary.
I been raised to be a gentleman, it's basically hereditary.
There's always time for you, I put you in my itinerary.
Our future's a myth, but together we're legendary.
If I only knew how to put these words with better etiquette.
I can show you how I mix the hood with a bit of intelligence.
It's unexpected how I come out with my profession.
But girl with me by your side, we can have the vent sessions.
Just ease down, and put the pain to the side.
I'm right here, that nice guy you need to find.
But if you can't come correct, and don't get ya mind right.
Then you wasn't that special, I kick you off to the side right?
Excuse the vulgarity, I'm tired of gettin' crushed.
But if you the one I want, then your love is now a MUST.
I need you, there ain't no better way to say.
My insecurity is just for your well-being, baby girl no need to hate.
But I understand how you feel, and know what you wanna do.
But if you creep right back, I'll always come back to you.

Coldest Winter

Fucking heater is brokening.. I'm so fucking cold.


But anyways.. Today was okay.. Yesterday, I skipped school to spend quality time with kuya and the chilreennn.. Was funn I admit.. I love them to death man. and then picked up my pops to have a big ass fam. dinner.
That nigga can bitch for days.. I couldn't stop laughing.

But yea, that got pretty sad, and kuya called me this morning at like 7 with all this mushy ushy ish, haha, it was heartfelt, love that nigga to deathhhh.. Made me who I am today.. Well for most aspects.

But tomorrow and thursday and friday, AND saturday is gonna be somin else...
So damn busy, and I have an impossible math test to take.. No time to studyy.. wassup with that?!
So I gotta get tutored, gosh, somin' bout that makes me feel like a loser..

haha, anyway, it's been the coldest winter yo, dammmmnnn..
I ain't know what else to say.
SO for noww..

Peaceassyyyy

Wow.

It's amazing you know.. I haven't written in a while, but it's coooo..

Birthday week past, and i made myself feel like a king. hahaha
Wed. Nov. 26th was my officail bday.. nothing special that day, except seeing Kuya from Michigan HOLLA!
He was my teacher hahah..

Thanksgiving was the shiet.. Saw my cousins n whatnot..

But Friday.. OH baby.. BLack Friday..
Bought some tight sweaters, and then my bday shindig..

Thanks to all who came, and shared my emotions haha.
and got a CAR as a surprise from my ermatz.. damn.. i teared.. so what. haha

Saturday was the fam. gang shindig.. but i had to leave early dammit.
but on the brighter note, i'm gonna see passion when he comes to NY apparently.. haha

and sunday.. workday.. so i just got home and legs killin me.

Tom. heading to Hollis to bid farewell to kuya and my little ones..
Damn, more emotions flying.. then back to fucking school..

That's the life, fuck it!
Partyyartyarty this week. HOLLLAAAA

And this is for...

Just came back home, and Bought Left 4 Dead.
Went to Napons house because Henry needed me, and damn, you know we gonna pull through bro.

So here's another one

And this is for that one person who's kept us going.
When we was young, she was Mrs. All-knowing.
In times of strife, the one woman that kept us strong.
She can't be wrong, it's the same old song.
Perseverence is what I've rendered.
Her warm love is tender.
Your intelligence is unmatched, so in most times, I do surrender.
You Superwoman + Wonderwoman combined.
That makes you my Darna, yea I don't mind.
Sooner or later we come to find.
Our weaknesses show, how could I have been so blind?
You've been there no matter what, and I can't stand to see you weak.
You pampered me, and clothed me, and made my food to eat.
We have been growing, and our significant age has come.
But even though I'm mature, to you I still run.
If you fall, I fall, it's as simple as can be.
You tell me what I'm supposed to do, and who I can be.
Thinking about it intricately, I only take advantage.
The pain I've caused, ermatz, how can you manage?
Torment and grief is the name of my deceit.
But not once have you thought of giving up to retreat.
I know I haven't been the best, but I promise it's true.
Unconditional love is what I give to you.
You're the number one woman how can I lie.
You're my mother damn it, for you I would die.
I can't see you weak, it cramps my whole vision.
I wish it was me sittin' there, in your position.
You're an angel in disguise, I know this.
And I love you no matter what, to you I owe this.
And this is for you mom.

Inspiration

First blog ever. Didn't think I'd make one at all, but since I'm tryin' this poetry stuff. What better place to write it atttt roightt??
Haha, here it goes I guess.


Inspiration is what I lack, yet at the same time it's what I have.
No commitment, but only to my family is where it's at.
It's hard to try and speak, or to say of what I know.
I have my sense of direction, but still I don't know where to go.
I have a straight path, but many alternatives to take.
I need my inspiration, take my passion for God's sake.
No I need my passion, take my ambition's namesake.
No, I need my ambition, for my future is at stake.
What the hell am I to do, who the hell do I have to see?
I guess for now my inspiration is you, and you are a part of me.
I don't like to base it on you as my matter of principle.
Because I know without you, I can still be invincible.
It's incredible, you have been a part of my life.
When you would question my motives, I would think twice.
I gotta be a man, it's time to take the damn lead.
But if you're convinced with my confidence, does that mean you'll leave.
You have been drifting, I have no control.
Even if I step up, I feel I can't do no more.
You slippin', everybody can tell how you changed.
You're thinking you doing great, but you've gone insane.
You think what you do is making sense to our brain.
But that stature you once had, will never be the same.
You were my inspiration, I gotta live life through my flashbacks.
You don't give me your all anymore, all you do is halfass.
Thanks for the sweet love that was shared in the past.
You're not my inspiration anymore, though you were my first, you can't be my last.

I'm tryin' dammit. haha